AdirAin Loves…

AdirAin Loves…

spending our lives 2gether forever

Preg no not yet

18. August 2008 | Kategorie :: 0ur Daily Pages ::

ok our wedding anniversary is like 7days away and what im about to type came to me 24hours ago and its been finalised by me only me eventhough the husband nods in aggreement forcefully.Back then  i we tried mating and hoping that soon i’ll conceived our gift of love.However we succeeded twice and failed twice too maybe its not meant to be maybe my womb is not strong enough or what other maybe that we can possibly think off and the list culd go on till forever.The pressure rised and we strongly tried but i stopped now this instance.

What was i thinking?I mean with my condition and how i depend on others for my movements will make things worst than it already is.Imagine a live in me that i have to carry for 9months and that not only my family have to look after me they too have to handle the heavy mass that i’ll consume throughtout the pregnancy.I would be selfish if i proceed trying.I know and clearly aware that all this is the miracles of ALLAH and no questions asked but ALLAH gave me brain to think and not to disfunction it. 

My mind is clear when i saw LIFE IN THE WOMB at national geographic that day.No im not afraid to cnceive but what troubles me when i saw that nrmal healthy ppl have to go thru C-sect when difficulties sets in,it made me thinking that how on earth i could escape frm C-sect when my cndition is like this? You know those doctors when they cut it open they just grab whatever that they can reach in to and it wont look nice if the doc were to grab my child’s butt first rather than his head,right? So there i’ve decided not to cnceive untill im fully recvered.At the very most even if by then i have to go C-Sect at the very least Delivering my child gave me choices.

So darling thank you for ur support and how u tried being understanding with all these.*muah*

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Rombak

14. July 2008 | Kategorie :: 0ur Daily Pages ::

Our love nest is now in a process of revamping.Yesterday mamu yem came and painted 1/2 of the room.I loooove the color that zauj chosed.Not bad la that husbern.Gd work love.Next is to grill up the glass rack that i’d decided in using to place my lappy.OOh dear i soo cant wait lovenest new look.Well we paid ahun solid $50 to clean our room..dusting and etc.With his height it’ll be no problem.

Eversince zauj agreed on buying a tv for LN well i’ve made my research and laid my eyes on this brand that from my view fits in perfectly,zauj gulped down loudly when i showed him that.heh.Now what more do i want hmmmm.Can tell that zauj is starting to scratch his head now as a sign of stress that soon he needs to fork out cash.ka-ching.Ur not alone in this la love.

Our raya outfit has arrived and the man is smiling from ear to ear bcos this year his wished came true.Next raya if only a new member joins the club than wouldnt it be nice?I knoww…but at times the heart yearns for it to be real appearing and holding it.

Oh well..i’ve got a feeling that things is going to be ok.insya’allah.

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Boredom Strikes

6. July 2008 | Kategorie :: 0ur Daily Pages ::

No tv,psp ran out of batteries,Hp have no games in it,Not allowed to hear songs,Lappy been used by me.

Movements is limited,living room is conquered by mamu,ahun is busy with his friend

So zauj is left alone..he looked bored.I cant entrtain him bcos im in no mood to do so.

What happened?

I caught him doing some funny actions to keep himself amused.*lol*.Gua tak leh angkat beb.

We’re both down with flu so thats mainly why we’re at a distance.

Few minutes ago zauj finally agree on buying a tv for our room..yahooooooo

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yesterday

19. June 2008 | Kategorie :: 0ur Daily Pages ::

Went out with umi&ahun to get my eyes checked.Zauj has to work but he managed to gave me his sad look before he leaves.heh.

It was raining and time was delayed.Update him my whereabouts and his responds was abit not happy.hehe.Head to kala’s place then over to Ehub.By then zauj has been exchanging sms-es with me partly sarcastic but cute in a way.Though i was enjoying myself he was in my mind all the time.

Till 11pm uncle fetched us and the plan was to send us home but since zauj has been waiting for me at the void deck,umi suggested we went for supper.Was trying my very best to smile at him but i knew he’s too shagged to entertain my mischievious act.Oh well we slept at 4am bcos i was soo excited sharing on what i did the whole day and by then i saw the looked of jealousy on his face.*bleargh*.

And now he said he do not want to take any o.t during his off days bcos he’s afraid im going out again.*smack head*.

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No Matter..

25. May 2008 | Kategorie :: 0ur Daily Pages ::

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No matter how i scream at him..

No matter how i scolded him..

No matter how i threw sarcastic words at him..

No matter how i hated to be in tears bcos of him..

No matter how i gave him the silent treatment..

No matter how i refused getting myself embraced in his arm..

No matter how i leave him out of my plans..

He still come to me every morning&night kissing my forehead,giving me the last look of love before he takes his leave and hold my hands tightly whenever i shrieked in pain.Last night he said

‘Your a good wife and all these while i must have abandoned my privileged’

He repeated this statement 3times while hugging me.My heart sanked,i knew that the one who said that to me were the one whom i’ve chosen to live my life with.Why cant other people just be happy for us,goodness precious,while the heart yearns to be loved.. the ego’s choosed to leave. :(

Dear Love if ur reading this..Allah knows how much i loved you and yes only He knows if all this while u struggled to be better.But as a wife never once i stopped praying for you and never once nor lil did my love decreases.I know we’re both still trying to adapt to the new changes but i would be more then happy if we were to face that human together while holding hands.

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Countdown

19. May 2008 | Kategorie :: 0ur Daily Pages ::
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his cuteness..

14. April 2008 | Kategorie :: 0ur Daily Pages ::

Seriously im sooo into my very own husband,i mean im gratefull that he took the effort to be a better man and i have no problem communicating with him.Hence every now&then he brought smiles to my face.No,im not singing tunes of my vry own man but im impressed by his changes.He’s really serious spending his life with me.

The other night as i was down with frustrations he held me closed enough under his “bushyuk” armpit and whispered “Ur beautiful”. Like awwwwwww.Woman sure love being praised,right?So anyway no doubt both of us are slightly depressed by a situation that will affect our future but the only thing that kept us moving will be our love and mind.Honestly i may give up any minute if i were to face “them” everyday.Blardy moron,its not fair.Zauj didnt deserves that kind of treatment and for me i dont care that much as im begining to refrained my ties with “u all”.

Zauj worked hard to give me a simple living and i appreciate that very much,thank you!!But why must “you” looked at him at a low view?Allah is fair and im sure whatever things that happened and going to happen has a valuable reason to it.

As a wife i must say and im proud to say i have the most loving husband in the world and his flaws has vanished long time ago.Alhamdulilaah..No wife bears to see the tears that pours from the eyes of her husband and if its a must i’ll personally will stand up for him.

Zauj,stay strong me love as Allah is testing u and gaved u a huge obstacle for u to go thru it wisely and sincerely.Im always here for you loving and cherishing you till eternity.

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Warning:Long Entry..hehehe

2. April 2008 | Kategorie :: 0ur Daily Pages ::

The title says it all..yes darling my mood R striked me yesterday at 6pm.*lol*.So off i went in my room tarik cadar,bukak sarung bantal then bongkar laci almari(God knows when the last time i bongkar that laci).Zauj who was in the kitchen happily main laptop overheard me throwing the things on the floor scurry in the room with jaws wide open which took him awhile to ask me

“Ayang what are you doing?”
“Oh i nak main lempar2 barang,care to join?”
*Smack head*
He ran to the kitchen which i assumed to off the laptop then came back with plastic bags.As i was still throwing the unwanted junks zauj who was then got all pissed ticked me off by saying

“Ayang u ni eh buang barang2 then i kene kutip tau”
“Thats what husband&wife are for,when i jadi api u’ll be the water and when i buang2 barang u jadi tukang kutip..simple kan?”
*pinch my cheeks*.hehe.

After im done with the laci almari i went over to the other laci’s yg i tak pernah sentuh but decided too bcos my curiosity kills me when zauj refrained me from touching that set of laci’s.My struggles in trying to bukak that laci paid off bcos macam2 khazanah surat ade kat dalam laci tu.Beserak Giler(with the biggest ‘B’ & ‘G’).Mcm2 surat ade surat tahun 2006 pun ade ni.*pengsan*.Zauj muka da cuak,die tahu yg isteri ni lekas naik berang so mcm biaser la me buang2 mane yang tak perlu bila da clear i go ahead to the 2nd laci..elerrrrmaaak patut la gifts given by all my lovely friends,sisters in islam & kiddos all lenyap rupa2nyer zauj simpan kat laci tu.Fed Up tau.!!.Seriously i love&treasure all the gifts given to me bcos its priceless and i appreaciate the thoughts..here’s are my favourite:

Sims2 from Sis freek,
V.S keychain from sis faye,
A mug from Sis banun,
Albums,teddybears,big cards,barbie,flowers,begs,make-ups from my ladies
Ayat2 Cinta by Sis banun,
Brooch from Sis em,
Ayat Quran from Sis Nor,
Frames from sri,
&
Lots n lots of chocolates which by now da kat dlm perut or maybe da “decomposed”..hehehe..
Many loves giving me chocolates bcos thats what i love.
And honestly there’s many more if i were to bongkar umi’s strore next..hehehe..tu baru hadiah i dapat thru this bisnes blum hadiah kawin lagi..heh..

Was kinda sad la ok bcos these gifts was distributed by zauj to ahun and himself.(Ain blum mati lagi tapi zauj da bahgi2 kan harta..sheesh).So i re-organised my gifts and put it nicely in the laci.Oh oh while re-organising kan i jumpe all my hindustan vcds that zauj sorok kat dlm skali.*roll-eyes*.After tu da settled i g bongkar my almari cermin nyer laci..k this one eh da berkali-kali ain kemas tapi tetap berserak.haiz.

Tell me pempuan mane tak suke make-up..i looooove make-ups and love seeing beautiful ladies.Alhamdulilaah tak pernah pulak rasa iri hati or such.So as i was saying hmmm all my make-up is from Maybelline dari eye liner-concealer-foundation-mascara-eye shadows-lip gloss-lipstick-lip liner-powder.Yes i looove Maybelline.Zauj kinda bingit sbab there’s too much make-up dlm laci..hehehe.Jadi smlm yg mane da lama kan i have to throw it away,lama pun tk lama ard 3months g2. *sob *sob*

Then moving on to hiasan,ok  f.y.i  i tak minat ngan gold accesories but i have to have them since im now a married wife and umi said so.*bleargh*.U didnt see me wearing them bcos i dont want too till im forced too..heh..Honestly i tak pergi beli all that and believe me all those barang2 emas is a gift from my love ones to me.

Like my rantai panjang&cincin(mas kawin) from zauj
My gelang lonceng from arwah mamu
My cincin from umi
My bangle from mak(mak angkat la)
Kerabu from umi and ade from arwah mak(grandma)
Gelang emas ade emas putih sikit is also from arwah mak
Anting2 from umi

tu semua from them given to me either on my b’day or they jus wanna see them on me but except for mas kawin la..hehehe.hmmm klau yg diamond tu a.k.a bling bling i loike..hehehe..

on my 16b’day family angkat&my familygave me a set of diamonds.

A rantai from mak angkat
Kerabu from my sisters angkat
Gelang from umi
Cincin by Sis pake

later on the in laws hadiah kan cincin and lately on our 2nd wed anniv zauj gave me diamond ring.See i da kalah kan mami jarum you know.

Ok how about jam tangan?yes i love jam tangan..infact i’ve alot of it too..hehehe.Again i tak beli sbab my family yg hadiah kan to me..hehehe..

my 24hour watch given to me by umi
watch made by beads givn by bapak
ahun gave me 2watch from pasar mlm but ok la its the thought that counts and it looked cantik.
A guess watch my all time favourite designed for a lady like given by umi..yeayness..

tu die banyak kan..all the above is in my laci..so i organised baik2 and now da senonoh..heh..

everythings done at 10pm,notty zauj he insisted kite mandi together gether..syiok u mcm budak2 tau main2 sabun..kwang kwang kwang..

so zauj’s next off day i sure wanna attack our almari kain baju.EarthQuake tau.ok la people i da penat nk type ni..thanks for reading.

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26. March 2008 | Kategorie :: Personal ::

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Addicted

25. March 2008 | Kategorie :: 0ur Daily Pages ::

Everynight during zauj on reservist we never fail to play boggle as a way to release the man’s stress.Later do we know we’re addicted to it.Its like a must to play Boggle.I realised the intimacy is growing gracefully.Alhamdulilaah.

Now that zauj has finished his reservist and back to his wrking shifts i finds it hard to play boggle with him bcos he spent most of his time resting.hah.Kinda boring actually.I hope we’ll adjust soon.The last we went out for sheer fun was ages ago,whenever i plan for an outing somehow it’ll be cancelled unexpectedly due to home affairs.As for the love nest i really think we need a new mattress soon real soon.

the love is blooming and i’ll stand by him now till forever..insya’allah..

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